Recurring Dreams

What do you make of dreaming the same dream TWICE in a row in the space of 1 month?

Here’s a write-up on recurring dreams from Pyschology Today – https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/dream-factory/201411/whats-behind-your-recurring-dreams

One key phrase that got my attention:

In general, recurring dreams indicate the presence of an unresolved and persistent conflict in an individual’s life, and the theme or Central Image of the dream provides a stage for this conflict to play out. The cessation of a recurrent dream may indicate that the conflict has been successfully resolved. Thus, being aware of and working with recurring dreams in your personal life or in therapy is a useful tool for resolving conflicts and improving well-being.

Well this happened to me twice within a month (mid may & early june) …… as both times, I had dreamed about losing a bag/baggage/luggage.

The 1st time – the dream was about losing my bag in a room …… and ended up going round and round to locate it (despite the fact that the bag was somewhere in the room itself).

The 2nd time – the dream was a clearer one.

As always, it is to the dream dictionary to decipher the meaning of the dream(s) as there is always a deeper/more significant meaning to it (to represent some part/unresolved issues in our lives). Also, this is the very 1st time I have dream of the same thing twice in a row – which does mean something very signifcant right?

From dreamscloud.com:

Bag – May represent the burdens and/or responsibilities you are carrying around; May also suggest a way to carry and find what you need in your dream at any given moment

Baggage – May symbolize (1) the problems and burdens you carry with you; (2) going on a trip; (3) extra or gained weight; (4) old hurts and emotions that you have not yet dealt with

There are also other themes, such as searching and wandering – with the general being about feeling lost/direction-less, searching for something missing in life (e.g. love, fulfillment), and even seeking a solution to a problem.

The dreamscloud explanation on the symbolism for lost luggage in my 2nd dream just confirms the pertinent issue that I have to deal with going forward, as below

A dream about losing your luggage may symbolize a loss of personal identity or belonging.

You may be feeling lost. You may be ready for change and prepared to redefine or “find yourself”.

Getting out of slumps, be it calling, work, personal, and to a certain extent even blogging. This has basically clouded me for a good part of June. As with getting out of slumps, June does feel like a long month indeed! Definitely, in a not-so-good way, the major issue from earlier in the year (i.e. branch issues) has not really gone away as the various negative feelings (hurt, abandonment, betrayal) re-surfaced again, as hard as I try to put them aside and move on.

Out of all these, I guess the most important take-away here at the end of everything is knowing the real issue at the core is the most important small step forward, before the next small step to resolve the problem comes ……

Can’t believe this entry took a good part of the afternoon to finish up. Well, this is one small step to reflect and get the issue out of my mind, as well as get out of my ‘blogging slump’ and start July on a fresh slate again!

Learn From Experience, Reflect, Review, Reboot

21 days into the new year (as today is 21st January 2015) …… It has been a pretty good start to year 2015 so far 🙂

After getting through a pretty stressful Q4 last year (2014) ‘fire-fighting’ and ‘solving’ issues here and there, am definitely thankful for the various positives and good tidings 21 days into January and into 2015 in all. And you definitely feel good when things start to feel right, and happen right!

In addition, it is constantly an ongoing challenge to keep building onto sustainable habits and making them permanent / for the long haul in the greater scheme of things. Just yesterday (or rather on Tuesday evening) …… the below happened.

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Essentially I spent a good 4 hour odd on a simple piece of paperwork – when I have originally targeted to finish it 2 to 2.5 hours max so that I can leave office at 7pm as originally intended. Thinking through it as I blog this down now …… I was reminded of what we had discussed just earlier in the day (Tuesday morning to be exact) during PPI (weekly focus group) …… on the need to standardize and fine tune our daily work flow, right from meeting to fact find to preparation to implementation to post sales follow up.

So why did I waste time writing out the paperwork by hand when I should have right from the start use a type-written version (typing out the rationale is way faster than writing) – which was what I have been doing for the past few cases submitted. On average I took around 2-3 hours to complete everything when type-written …… so a lapse of judgement there and I should have stuck to my SOP (standard operating procedure) strictly – which is doing the more efficient method of type-writing the post sales paperwork right from the start.

Thus one major resolution / activity / habit (for year 2015 and beyond) that I need to consistently review and refine would be my financial planning processes and workflow – right from meeting to implementation to post sales paperwork/compliance and follow-up.

December Seems Like A Very Short Month

8 days into December – the very last lap of year 2012! My earlier tweet sums up perfectly my thoughts about December to date ….

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Ended off November in a frustrating & angry way (at work) .. Lets just say things have got to happen in order to begin December on a clean slate. Has been a very peaceful start to Dec so far, with the Standard Chartered Marathon (did Half Marathon this year) last Sunday .. followed by 2 days of break (1 post marathon break planned, 1 unplanned due to time of the month) .. 2 key meetings sorted in .. and minimal office time (7+ hours in total this week, which is less than 1 night of sleep :P) …… I have to say that the person up there did answer to my silent wish of wanting to spend less time outside office this week!

Am typing this entry as I’m on the train heading to Chinatown/Central area for some shopping catch-up and my hair spa appointment later. Just so many things on my mind, be it winter stuff to be bought before trip (will have to monitor the latest tsunami alerts), budgeting to be done by weekend, itinerary planning, packing & changing money by next week, the pile of work that needs to be cleared by next week, calendar deliveries (to clear as much as possible before trip, no repeat of year 2011 timing disaster), more packing & throwing (starting with home 1st), and getting it some workouts (forsee this will be challenging given the higher priority of various items stated above) …… A never ending list indeed!

Post-trip wise, it will be Christmas Eve (Mon 24th Dec), then Christmas followed by a short 3 days before the work week ends for year 2012! Really really short indeed! Time files quickly when you least want it ……..

Commitment

A lesson and great article on commitment here:

http://blog.beliefnet.com/lessonsfromarecoveringdoormat/2010/03/Law-of-Attraction-in-Action-Commitment.html

As tweeted earlier, ended up at this page after googling about people who often jump from one idea to another without a clear goal in mind (you can say lack of focus, giving up too easily etc.) …… Guess I was ‘concerned’ enough about said person to make me want to google that …… AND also a timely reminder for myself and in the things I do in work and daily life!

Still have one backlogged entry to be completed but its getting late and have an early start to my day tommorrow (welcome change after today’s right wisdom tooth induced headachne that was a real mood bummer!) ……  Gotta watch some TV & sleep! Ciao!

Wednesday – Work From Home Day

Legs still feeling the dull achne from yesterday’s run (was a harder effort compared to last Thursday’s run) + accumulated effect from lugging a heavy bag in sweaty state (long story – quene at gym toilet was too long so left without showering) and hunting for food post workout …… so slept in and after 1 hour – decided that working from home would be more time efficient than 2 hours travelling (1 hour per trip to and fro) ……. Hence the title of this entry, haha!

As tweeted, would like to do some packing and re-organization today, plus finish up my blog entry started on Monday! Not to mention also the various stuff I have to follow up on and appointments to set ……..

Weekly Sunday Entry

Sundays always seem the best day to blog as I find myself having more time to sit down, slowly consolidate my thoughts before blogging proper ……

And today is no exception ….. in addition, I turned off my iphone alarm this morning (after waking up at 730am to charge the phone), and the expected result is …… I slept in again! (Thus missing up on a planned morning/noon gym session before lunch and window shopping in town as I have meant to check out the new Orchard gym since it was opened bakc in late Jan) ……

And the usual Sunday routine will continue with some brunch/lunch and some lazing in front of the TV channel surfing (with usually nothing much to watch) and going online …… Followed by my usual Sunday spin class (which I have not been going for since CNY no thanks to laziness & not being able to book my bike – like last Sat for instance) …… and which I decided not to go later as well (because C is not teaching + it is a fat burn i.e. endurance class today which I feel not really worth the 1hr travelling time given that C is not teaching today) ……

So I’m leisurely blogging now and catching up on Dream High (a new drama that I started to watch this week) at the same time …… and hopefully after this, pick up on some work which I was ‘supposed’ to do but whiled away my Saturday afternoon on Dream High & youtube, and at the same time, trying to power nap unsucessfully (just couldn’t get myself to nap 1 hour) …… so lazy & leisurely Sunday no more 😛

As self-noted on my twitter, I really should’ve booked my bike for either yesterday afternoon’s spin class (Intervals) or this morning’s class (Hill Ride) …… and thus would be more able to enjoy my Sunday in a more leisurely manner …… In case you are wondering what’s the big deal about booking a bike for a spin/indoor cycling class, it is precisely that by booking the day before, the day’s schedule has a rough plan to it, and generally I like going through a day (be it work or personal time) with a sense of knowing what I am going to do – as versus to being a headless chicken ……

As I go through my tweets further, earlier in the week, I was pretty unhappy/pissed over some work issues …… and at the same time my iPhone OS decided to black out on me as well (which is why I stated that even the Phone is in agrement to my state of mind as well, it can’t be that co-incident right) …… Its not that big a problem making a trip down to M1’s iPhone service centre @ Plaza Singapura for a replacement as it was only a 2 hour journey to and fro (including a quick lunch at Burger King & waiting time at M1) …… but my main beef is that being under pressure does not give you the right to be flustered and tactless with your words (resulting in the side product of being hurtful) ……

Having read Dale Carnegie’s “How To Win Friends And Influence People”, one important point that I’ve noted and striving to practice in everyday life is that positive encouragement always gets people moving rather than lashing out/being harsh/being hurtful – which provokes unhappiness and silent rebellion rather than inspiring people to do something for themselves …… But why is it that people allow their frustration and external pressures to get better of them in their anxiety to see quick results? I would think taking some time out to reflect and work on what needs to be improved on/done better would make more sense rather than acting so highly strung!

Which is why it takes tremendous effort for one to keep their focus and remain calm and composed, and act with grace and dignity in high pressure moments and I genuinely salute them for doing so!

And yes, I silently rebelled by refusing to go office on Thursday as my heart tells me this  ‘break’ is necessary to prevent myself from getting more pissed/unhappy about the situation …… although I did have the opportunity to put in a really sacarstic word, but really what’s the point when some people are so caught up in their own world/own problems/own pressures and not being able to take a step back to see the bigger picture of things. Futhermore, experience (as a teacher) tells me that lashing out at someone without a doubt does satisfy personal ego, but other than that, it does not contribute anything to solve the underlying root problem, so seriously why bother ……

So as tweeted, I got to enjoy a leisurely mini hotpot lunch on Thursday ($5 hotpot at Feast foodcourt in Jurong Point,very value for money) and got down to taking my IC photos to re-register my IC (overdue for a couple of months now) …… Speaking of which I got to go and complete the registration online now (couldn’t finish it on Thurs as I had to re-compress the IC files, damn annoying) ……

Slacked My Sunday Evening Off …..

I happily tweeted on Sunday afternoon (whilst on my way to Orchard for Spin Class) that I would like to clear this stack of papers when I get home in the evening ….. to wind down my Sunday!

Above is the stack of 2008-2010 work stuff …. out of which one pile was digged out from the storeroom ….. to be re-organized according to labels/filing system ……

BUT …… I proceeded to chill (or rather slack) on my bed after my dinner, watching movies/dramas/amazing race on my laptop …. instead of doing the simple packing that I promised myself 😦 …… unfortunately the motivation to slack on my bed was higher no thanks to a pretty intensive Intervals spin earlier @ Orchard gym and no access to the living room tv (parents wanted to watch taiwan soap opera & dvd) ……

Despite the unplanned lazy Sunday evening …… on a related note, I must say this has been quite a fair bit of throwing/pruning/clearing that I have been doing for the past 1+ month or so as I was telling my sister on Saturday that I can’t believe I have thrown away so much stuff from the storeroom this time round 🙂 …… have been clearing the older stuff in my brother’s room & in the storeroom (so as to make space for some stuff to be re-organized and some stuff brought back home from office) …… not to mention the packing  & pruning in the office with regards to office moving as well ……

Now I need to get my half-year reivew exercise in order ……… and the stack of papers + work bag to be cleared as well …….  once again, tunnel vision needed for a busy and challenging week ahead!!